I weighed in this morning at 219.5! I lost 3 pounds this week, making my total loss in Allan's Challenge so far at 5.5 pounds, yay! I'm finally out of the 220's! Woot-woot!
I weighed 249.5 on 1/1/12, and weigh 30 pounds less on 3/11/12. That makes me so happy.
By the way, I did The Firm Calorie Explosion last night. Woah. Wayyyy harder than I expected. Great workout! I got it for 3.99, so it was so worth the money. It competed with Jillian and Bob in my eyes! If anyone's close by, Marshall's in Rego Park Queens still have some I believe!
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Saturday, March 10, 2012
There is more to me than what you see
I blog a lot about fun & frivolous things...hand bags, clothes, Disney, etc. These are all things that I love, and booking my trip to Disney was the catalyst to get this blog and journey started. It gave me that push, but it's not what will keep me continuing on my path to healthiness. At some point, I will get to my goal size, and the novelty of wearing all these cute clothes will wear off. These are things I look forward to, and keep me going for now, but there has to be something more that will keep this weight off of me forever.
I was with my mom in the oncologist's office when she was given her stage 4 pancreatic cancer diagnosis. It was there I learned of the history of cancer in my mother's side of the family. My grandfather died of Leukemia in his thirties. My grandmother had and beat ovarian cancer in her thirties, and later beat skin cancer. My mom passed away at 50 from cancer. My 30 year old sister has to go every 6 months to get a pap smear because she has been found with precancerous cells, in fact she needs a biopsy done AGAIN next week because they found something suspicious in her last exam.
I am scared shitless for myself. I know that my risk of getting cancer is pretty high with all of this in my family. In fact, I had a precancerous mole removed from my skin in my early twenties, thank God I don't have skin cancer (I hope). The biggest risk factors for pancreatic cancer are: a family history, smoking, and obesity. I have two out of three. For a few months after she passed, I felt hopeless. I felt it was only a matter of time that I would get cancer too. Every little twinge I felt in my stomach, I panicked. I ate & ate, figuring what was the point.
Then I woke up.
My son was not a happy "accident" after forgetting to take a birth control pill one day. My partner and I desperately wanted to have a child, but being two mommies, it wouldn't happen unless we made it happen. I read, and read, and read and researched for years on what to do. I cried and prayed about it before we even tried because we are not totally financially well off, and I was afraid it would take so many tries for me to get pregnant, and we wouldn't be able to afford it. Finally, on a random day in January of 2010, I was walking my dog on a Saturday afternoon. I was thinking, and realized I would get just enough money on my tax refund check for one try. I called up J at work and asked if we could give it a shot. She said yes, and I set my plan into motion. I took Clomid to induce ovulation, I kept track of my ovulation, I took prenatal vitamins, chose a donor from a bank and I prayed. It worked on our first try at home.
If you've kept up with my blog, it's probably plain to see that my son is my everything and the world to me. If I don't get this weight off, I will vastly increase my chances of getting cancer. I can't let this happen. If I go at the age my mom did, my son will only be 18 years old. The panic I feel when I think of this leaves me breathless. I have to do whatever it takes to prevent this from happening. If I get cancer despite being as healthy as I can be, than it was out of my hands. But if I let myself go completely, live the rest of my life obese, and then get cancer?? That will kill me. I can't do that to my son. I will not be any better than Whitney Houston who left her 18 year old daughter behind. If I get cancer because I couldn't stop eating crap, I will be just as bad as any drug addict, maybe even worse because maybe HE will follow my footsteps because I wasn't a good role model.
I did whatever I could to bring a child to this Earth, and I need to make sure I do whatever I can to stay here on this Earth to be with him.
I was with my mom in the oncologist's office when she was given her stage 4 pancreatic cancer diagnosis. It was there I learned of the history of cancer in my mother's side of the family. My grandfather died of Leukemia in his thirties. My grandmother had and beat ovarian cancer in her thirties, and later beat skin cancer. My mom passed away at 50 from cancer. My 30 year old sister has to go every 6 months to get a pap smear because she has been found with precancerous cells, in fact she needs a biopsy done AGAIN next week because they found something suspicious in her last exam.
I am scared shitless for myself. I know that my risk of getting cancer is pretty high with all of this in my family. In fact, I had a precancerous mole removed from my skin in my early twenties, thank God I don't have skin cancer (I hope). The biggest risk factors for pancreatic cancer are: a family history, smoking, and obesity. I have two out of three. For a few months after she passed, I felt hopeless. I felt it was only a matter of time that I would get cancer too. Every little twinge I felt in my stomach, I panicked. I ate & ate, figuring what was the point.
Then I woke up.
My son was not a happy "accident" after forgetting to take a birth control pill one day. My partner and I desperately wanted to have a child, but being two mommies, it wouldn't happen unless we made it happen. I read, and read, and read and researched for years on what to do. I cried and prayed about it before we even tried because we are not totally financially well off, and I was afraid it would take so many tries for me to get pregnant, and we wouldn't be able to afford it. Finally, on a random day in January of 2010, I was walking my dog on a Saturday afternoon. I was thinking, and realized I would get just enough money on my tax refund check for one try. I called up J at work and asked if we could give it a shot. She said yes, and I set my plan into motion. I took Clomid to induce ovulation, I kept track of my ovulation, I took prenatal vitamins, chose a donor from a bank and I prayed. It worked on our first try at home.
If you've kept up with my blog, it's probably plain to see that my son is my everything and the world to me. If I don't get this weight off, I will vastly increase my chances of getting cancer. I can't let this happen. If I go at the age my mom did, my son will only be 18 years old. The panic I feel when I think of this leaves me breathless. I have to do whatever it takes to prevent this from happening. If I get cancer despite being as healthy as I can be, than it was out of my hands. But if I let myself go completely, live the rest of my life obese, and then get cancer?? That will kill me. I can't do that to my son. I will not be any better than Whitney Houston who left her 18 year old daughter behind. If I get cancer because I couldn't stop eating crap, I will be just as bad as any drug addict, maybe even worse because maybe HE will follow my footsteps because I wasn't a good role model.
I did whatever I could to bring a child to this Earth, and I need to make sure I do whatever I can to stay here on this Earth to be with him.
Friday, March 9, 2012
Typical day at work, part two
The pictures below are what I see every single day at my job. Our company provides us with free snacks and soda cans every day. I used to have at least two of those snacks each day, plus at least two sodas. I used to feel pretty good about the snacks: “Fig Newtons have fruit!”, “It’s a 100 calorie pack!”, etc. That’s in addition to what used to be my typical bacon, egg & cheese on a roll breakfast, and Chinese or pizza for lunch. My co-workers munch on those snacks all day long in front of me. I haven't even had one since 1/16.
Our company also provides us with single servings cups of cereal. Many days, I eat a single serving of Cheerios with fruit or I will have two hardboiled eggs instead of the cereal. Mid-morning snack is a piece of fruit; lunch is usually turkey and a half a slice of cheese with romaine and light mayo on a whole wheat sandwich thin; afternoon snack is sliced cucumber with white vinegar, salt & pepper and garlic powder. I only drink water, seltzer or unsweetened tea. I’m not even kidding when I say I look forward to my healthy meals and snacks. I don’t feel weighed down and sluggish, but I am way more full with what I eat now, than with what I used to eat. Ironic, right?
Our company also provides us with single servings cups of cereal. Many days, I eat a single serving of Cheerios with fruit or I will have two hardboiled eggs instead of the cereal. Mid-morning snack is a piece of fruit; lunch is usually turkey and a half a slice of cheese with romaine and light mayo on a whole wheat sandwich thin; afternoon snack is sliced cucumber with white vinegar, salt & pepper and garlic powder. I only drink water, seltzer or unsweetened tea. I’m not even kidding when I say I look forward to my healthy meals and snacks. I don’t feel weighed down and sluggish, but I am way more full with what I eat now, than with what I used to eat. Ironic, right?
Woot-woot, Friday!
Oh my goodness, I am sooooo sore! Yesterday, I did my usual 55 minute lunch break walk, and then did the Biggest Loser DVD at home. It hurt while doing it because of the 30 Day Shred workout the day before, but I did it anyway. I woke up this morning in pain, but felt better after a really hot shower. Oh man, Jillian has kicked my ass! I am going to do my walk during lunch; today is my MIL’s birthday, so I can’t exercise tonight also, but I will focus on a lot of cardio this weekend.
I’m not sure who this person is, but I’ve become pretty addicted to working out lately. I always walk during my lunch break, even if it’s raining, and I get fidgety if I can’t workout at night also. A huge departure from the couch potato I was last year!!
Well, it’s Friday and I’m going to enjoy my weekend, hope you guys do the same!
I’m not sure who this person is, but I’ve become pretty addicted to working out lately. I always walk during my lunch break, even if it’s raining, and I get fidgety if I can’t workout at night also. A huge departure from the couch potato I was last year!!
Well, it’s Friday and I’m going to enjoy my weekend, hope you guys do the same!
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Me against Jillian
I'm alive!
That's right, I made it through 30 Day Shred, day 1 LOL. It was no joke, the toughest workout I've done so far, mainly because of the jumping jacks, "jump rope" and pushups. I had to do girly pushups, and there were a few jumping jacks that got left out, but I pushed myself and completed it to the end. I took a really hot shower last night and this morning to try and prevent being crippled by soreness, and I think it worked! This DVD is definitely making it in my weekly routine, at least 2 or 3 days out of the week. When I get to the point that I can do all of the jumping jacks and can do the pushups the regular way I will try the next phase. That might take two years (kidding! LOL) but I will get there.
Four months from today is my son's Christening. I pledge to fit into my size 14 clothes by then. I need to bust my ass, but it will get done. True story.
It is GORGEOUS in Queens today!
That's right, I made it through 30 Day Shred, day 1 LOL. It was no joke, the toughest workout I've done so far, mainly because of the jumping jacks, "jump rope" and pushups. I had to do girly pushups, and there were a few jumping jacks that got left out, but I pushed myself and completed it to the end. I took a really hot shower last night and this morning to try and prevent being crippled by soreness, and I think it worked! This DVD is definitely making it in my weekly routine, at least 2 or 3 days out of the week. When I get to the point that I can do all of the jumping jacks and can do the pushups the regular way I will try the next phase. That might take two years (kidding! LOL) but I will get there.
Four months from today is my son's Christening. I pledge to fit into my size 14 clothes by then. I need to bust my ass, but it will get done. True story.
It is GORGEOUS in Queens today!
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
It's a good day.. :)
Woot-woot! I scored last night at Marshall's! I got three The Firm DVD's for $3.99 each, and a cookbook for healthy slow-cooker recipes for $3.99! I was sooooooo excited when I found the DVD's, I paid $15 for each of my other ones at home. I started out with no workout DVD's at the beginning of this, and now I have eight to choose from: two Leslie Sansone's Walk at Home; Julianne Hough's Just Dance, Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred, Biggest Loser At Home Challenge; and the three Firm DVD's. I have a nice variety, and I shouldn't be bored any time soon!
I took the pic below this morning, I'm wearing pants that haven't fit me since 2008!
I took the pic below this morning, I'm wearing pants that haven't fit me since 2008!
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