I am starting over, beginning today. In these past few weeks, I have had great days and then really bad ones. I have had good intentions, and then let them go over and over. I have been under an ENORMOUS amount of stress due to finances because of unexpected things that have popped up and it has been very difficult. I always find a way to resolve things, and it always works out, but in the mean time I have lost almost all of my will and motivation. It’s like, I can have strength for so many things, but not all at the same time. That’s ridiculous to me, I need to be strong in ALL areas of my life.
I’m not writing this for you guys to hold my hand or even virtually kick my ass because you’ve done enough for me in all this time. I am writing this to be accountable and honest. I am starting over with a clean slate today. I weighed in at 205 this morning. There is no way I will reach my goal of 185 by July 8th for the Christening. I am not going to set a specific weight goal by a certain time frame anymore. I am just focusing on doing what worked for me all of this time up until recently: tracking my food intake, exercising twice a day, drinking only water, seltzer & unsweetened tea. I am going to weigh in here every Sunday. Thank you guys for being there for me in the past, and hopefully giving me a second chance at this.