Wednesday, January 18, 2012

A little background info:

I’m Mina (nickname of mine), I’m 32 and from Queens, NYC. I’ve been with my partner J for almost 9 years and we have a 14 month old son. I haven’t always been this overweight. I was kind of chubby as a kid, lost all the baby fat in my teens, became a cheerleader and worked at a gym. I was in the best shape of my life, and was very athletic and healthy. After I met J, I started gaining some “happy” weight, but then we went through a lot with losing loved ones, employment issues with the recession, having to move a few times, etc. Things became so tough and I started eating more out of stress. Last May, I lost my 50 year old mom to cancer, only three weeks after she was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer. I was with my mom when she passed away, and it was the most traumatic experience I have ever been through. My mom was my best friend. The next few months after she died were a blur to me. My baby was only 6 months old when she passed, and while it was so hard to take care of him while grieving & felt like I didn’t get a chance to mourn at the time, but he was my angel. He gave me a reason to keep going, and put a smile on my face during my worst days.

Today makes 8 months since she passed away, and I am starting to feel like phoenix rising through the ashes. While I will ALWAYS miss her, I know that I will see her again one day, and that makes me feel better. I know she is watching over me, and I want to make her proud of me. She loved her grandson SO much, and I know she would want me to be healthy and happy in order to be the best mommy I can for him. I resolved to have more fun this year with my family, to make wonderful memories. The day I made that resolution, I booked our trip to WDW. I haven’t been there since 1996, and wanted to go back for so long. J and I have never had a vacation together, and of course this our first trip as a family. Getting excited for the trip has given me the motivation to lose 100 pounds for it! I want to enjoy this long-awaited trip as much as possible, and I know getting in shape will help me do just that.

This morning I weighed myself and already lost a pound and a half since yesterday! Off to a great start!

There is a mantra that I came across this morning by someone who lost almost 100 pounds, she tells herself: "Surprise yourself". I like that. I am going to keep telling myself when I don't feel too into it to surprise myself by how far I can go.

2 comments:

  1. I am also on a weight loss journey for Disney! I plan on running a half marathon there either the Wine&Dine or Princess half. I also lost my 52 year old mother to cancer. (breast) Hardest thing I have been thru! I am looking forward to reading about your journey!! You can do this! =)


    Barbara

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  2. Woooh! You can do it! So sorry about your mom. I'm glad that you are finding peace and you are doing something good for yourself and for your family! Congrats on the pound and a half loss already! :)

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