There has been a lot of tension and turbulence at my office since last week and some things we were told. A lot of things are up in the air for all of us, and no one is certain of their future with the company at this moment. Because of that, it’s an unusually quiet and stressful atmosphere. I’m not really a nervous type, I’m more “que sera, sera”, but I’d still like to know what will happen to my position. I am so grateful to my daily walks at lunch, it helps to clear my head. Basically, whatever the outcome is, I will be fine. My self-confidence is growing with each day, and I’m becoming aware of my self-worth again. I come home exhausted from the atmosphere around me, but I know that it is temporary.
When I had started planning my son’s first birthday party last year, I stumbled upon a passion of mine: event planning. I planned this party to the minute detail for months prior. It was a Dr. Seuss theme, and I had to get creative because supplies were hard to find. I made my own favors, designed the invites, made banners, etc. I even made the place cards. I loved every minute of it, and was told by most of my guests that I should do this for a living. Even the photographer I hired told me she had never seen a party like mine. Once the dust settles at my job, I’m thinking of looking into finding a way to learn more about being a party planner on the side. It is something I love. Maybe that will be interning with a company, or freelancing on my own for friends to start. Because I’m feeling empowered with the changes I’m making on myself, I’m feeling inspired to pursue other dreams of mine. Why not? Who’s stopping me but myself, right?
Despite all of the uncertainty around me, I am still focused on my goal. My routine actually helps me because it’s the one thing I CAN control.